No longer standing still.
by Kyeli on March 3rd, 2010 @ 9:30 am in
Connection Paradigm
On January 1st (01/01), I was in Brigid’s Well. My life changed.
On February 2nd (02/02), my uterus collapsed. My life changed.
Today is March 3rd (03/03).
Two weeks ago, I promised myself that today, I would pick up and move on. I will still honor the pain, I will still stop for hurting if I need to hurt. I will still cry when I need to cry and mourn when I need to mourn – and even mope when I need to mope.
But as of today, I will not default to mope. I will turn my face to the sun and step out of the shadow. I will make that terrifying appointment with the doctor that I’ve been avoiding for a month. I will give light to my new plans and new ideas; I will speak them and start working with them. I will make vision boards and plans.
I will stop hiding out of fear and pain.
I will move forward instead of standing still.
I’m ready. I’m finally ready.
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Have you read the Freak Revolution Manifesto? It tells the story of why there is so much hurt and sadness in the world, and how we can heal through connection.
7 Comments!
#2 Posted by 
Michael on March 3rd, 2010 11:07 am | link
[*HUGS*]
#3 Posted by 
Mary McRae on March 3rd, 2010 1:27 pm | link
Welcome back Kyeli!
More {hugs} <3
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#5 Posted by 
Thekla Richter on March 3rd, 2010 5:47 pm | link
Your bravery and self-love are truly inspiring. I send out heartfelt good wishes to you for these next steps of your journey.
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#6 Posted by 
Julia on March 4th, 2010 9:22 pm | link
I’m glad you’re taking these steps now. :) Be well!
#7 Posted by 
deb(bie debbie doo) on March 5th, 2010 11:11 am | link
way to go Kyeli – I’m relatively new to your bloggy-world and am sending you much love and sunshine (no, really, the sun is actually shining in T-Town this morning!)…
deb(bie debbie doo)´s last blog ..Fellowship Fridays … Second Time Already :}
#1 Posted by
Ellie Di on March 3rd, 2010 10:49 am | link
HOORAY!!! (shakes the pompoms) I knew/know you could make it through. So very happy for you. <3
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